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christmas update! this is what i've done so far:
went to an ugly sweater party with my beautiful roommates!
 was unsure of what to do with my hands! (whoever names this movie gets a high five)

met up with my beautiful friend lauren at another ugly sweater party.

 danced my face off!

spooned with my bestie at denny's.

 wished i was in arizona!

 got bunny-eared while drinking water from a mason jar.

fell in love with my beautiful friend megan's handsome little boy.

next on the agenda? snow caving with the men in the family. ask me how excited i am! (if you asked, i'm way too excited.)


it begins in the ashes, the smoking, festering remnants of what was once good. 
tainted with the loss of the thing, once so glorious, now
crumbling and decaying and dying.
the faults, so obviously displayed, beckon; a haven to the regretful, repining soul.
a phoenix rises from the ashes,
the good
spirals into the charred, smoky air,
spreads its hopeful wings.
awakens the dreary and dead landscape from whence it rose.
it reigns for a time. all is not lost, all can be well again!

a relapse.
the elegant bird bursts into flame and slowly, gently, settles.
it begins again, in the ashes. 


merry fishmas!

who remembers the episode of the simpsons when mr. burns throws fish at the christmas parade and says "merry fishmas!"? classic. (apparently i only blog about tv shows nowadays? that will change once my life gets a little more interesting, i promise!)

merry christmas everybody :)

i love celebrating the Savior's birth and reflecting on His life and the sacrifices He made for us. I love that everybody is so happy and filled with the love and light of Christ at this time of year! this year i have developed such a great respect for Mary and her fortitude and strength, i'm so very grateful for her! i find that the older i get, the less i care about presents. as i mature, i'm learning that christmas isn't about the material things, it's about family and love and the Savior and hymns and the Spirit and charity. it's the best time of the year.

i hope your christmas was filled with love and family and happiness :)

on a less serious note, enjoy this! nobody does christmas like lady gaga.


home sweet home

how much do i love these people? thiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiis much!

i'm happy to be home :)


hey brother

today i heard someone knocking on the door. initially, i was scared (i thought is was the scary garneau man coming to get me.) but then i spied on him and saw it was only the mailman. with a package! oh joy of joys! i've been expecting a package from a certain missionary who is really bad at corresponding. so i threw open the door just as he was walking away. turns out the package was for one of our basement roommates and this is how i felt about it.

have any of you seen arrested development? its probably theeee funniest show besides 30 rock, the office, and modern family. don't believe me? watch it, i dare you.

my favorite moments of all time? the chicken dance (i think about it in class sometimes then start laughing)


the final countdown

this is it people. the last week before christmas break. am i excited? yes. i pretty much can't even handle it, even though you wouldn't be able to tell due to my lack of exclamation marks. i just don't like to use them because pretty much everything i say in real life is exclaimed so every post i would write would be full of exclaimed statements. and that would be weird! (there's one.)

anyways. school is driving me up the wall. i really enjoy it, don't get me wrong, but i'm getting cabin fever from sitting in that classroom all day everyday..i think i caught restless leg syndrome because i just want to get up and move and be anywhere but in the classroom/studying. like right now..i'm doing a pretty frickin' good job at avoiding studying for my test on wednesday and final on friday. what can i say, i'm good at what i do.

on another note, anybody have good music for me? i have a 6 hour drive home (hurrah for going home!) on friday and could use some decent tunes. lemme hear what you got.

 ps-check out this lovely lady's blog. so modest and fashiony!



nfw: new favorite website.

seriously, check it out, you wont regret it!

(this is my most favorite idea. ever.)


part two, as promised

remember this? welcome to part two.

14. i once used toothpaste as hand lotion..although there were exfoliating properties, it is not recommended.

15. i always push the chair under the table when i am done with it. in fact, i push other people's chairs under the table when they're done.

16. my hands and toes are always, always cold.

17. i have never heard the phrase "shot my wad" before alaya said it. and then i heard it on arrested development so i guess other people do know/use that phrase. you win, you always do.

18. i almost always turn on the tap when going to the bathroom.

19. i never flush the toilet with my hand, i always use my foot.

20. i'm terrible at comforting people..its much easier for me to give advice.

21. i love love LOVE when people write little captions underneath pictures on facebook.

22. i get words stuck in my head. most often, they're terms from my anat and phys class..right now its "cauda equina". (the tethered portion at the bottom of the spinal cord, just in cause you were wondering)

23. i have serious issues with eating/drinking noises..i cant stand them. even (read:especially) if they're my own.

24. i have my alberta student number memorized. nerd? maybe

25. it's hard for me to be spontaneous. like reaaaallly difficult.

26. i can't whistle. believe you me, i've tried.

27. i have this thing where i throw away everyone's garbage at lunchtime. free of charge.



a couple weekends ago i watched a high school friend's basketball game. it had been a while since we'd last seen each other, about a year or so. we got to talking afterward and she said something that surprised me. it went something like this:

"b-dog, you sound different. like more mature or something."

it shocked me to hear this. i felt like the same old becky, just with longer hair and more makeup than i wore in high school. the more i pondered this though, i realized how i had changed and grown and matured over the last year and a halfish.

i've learned:
  1. to ask for help: you're not a failure if you do.
  2. to manage my money smarter. too bad i didn't learn that one earlier.
  3. not to speed anymore. because speeding tickets are dumb and cost you demerits.
  4. that no matter how much my heart wants something, my head knows it's wrong. (i'm really really glad i learned this one)

isn't it funny how you can feel so secure and so sure of yourself, like you know everything there is to know about life, for a time, and when you look back a year later you realize how young and foolish and naive you were? and just how lucky you were to make it through that portion of your life, based on the decisions you were making? the scary thing is, this isnt a 'once in a lifetime' epiphany. its a recurring event. right now, i feel like i've learned a lot about life and myself and driving and money and school and dentistry and boys, but i know that in the next, say, 6 months, life's going to be full of turbulence and thick cloud coverage and ice forming on my (hypothetical) wings, so much so that i lose control and this delicate little balance i'm maintaining will spiral and careen off course into a terrifying, disorienting nosedive. but as i pick myself up from the ashes and dust myself off, just as i have done countless times before, i'll learn from it. i'll learn what i was doing wrong and why i was doing it wrong. i will grow and mature and become wise once again and will eventually look back at that phase in my life and laugh, saying "my, what a foolish and silly and unwise girl i once was!"

all these epiphanies better make me into a freaking fabulous woman, cause they sure are not fun.


loco for choco-puffs

if i could be anybody else in this world, it would be shakira. seriously, check her out.

(also the title is a reference to a 30 rock episode just in case y'all were wonderin)

summer lovin'

i could go for a little bit of this right now.


how bout you?


what's on your mind?

becky sparks is now in a relationship with homework and believe me, it's complicated.

becky sparks was told by the guy at the gym that her name was cute. i think he was flirting.

becky sparks has now made a goal to go to the gym at least three times a week.

 becky sparks has not shaved through the whole month of november. and october for that matter.

becky sparks is reaaaaally happy that i dont have an exam until monday.

becky sparks is a champion thrifter nowadays.

becky sparks would kind of like for it to be christmas holidays already.

becky sparks needs a social life or ysa dance or something.

becky sparks hasnt been on facebook for four days..and its starting to get to me.


i would.

i was inspired by this post. best inspiration i've received all day! lets begin:

cam gigandet is my latest obsession. he is PERFECTION. never underestimate the power of a tanned, blonde, blue eyed man.

seriously cam? seriously.

zac efron, of course! i find he's more attractive in movies than in pictures, although this picture is kind of proving me wrong 

 alex freaking pettyfer. he is peeta mellark in my mind. he is also fabulous without a shirt.

jonathan rhys meyers. i dont think an explanation is necessary.

 jake gyllenhall, especially when he looks like this.

once again..congrats ed, you've made it onto my blog twice.
ashton. you were freaking sexy in the killers. or whatever that lamesauce movie was called. point is, you didnt have a shirt on like the whole time..and it was good.

a few more, just in case you werent convinced.

this was fun..lets do this again sometime! deal? deeeal.