bears hump.
my new friend.
(note: its an eatmore..just in case you were wondering. not my new friend..the stuff on my leg. its an eatmore.)
Saturday
waterton
my new friend.
(note: its an eatmore..just in case you were wondering. not my new friend..the stuff on my leg. its an eatmore.)
Thursday
Wednesday
a rant like none other
maybe if i just start writing, all of these thoughts bouncing around in my head will just organize themselves into a semblance of a blog post and my mind will stop racing at a thousand miles per hour. cause trying to keep up with it is kind of tiring.
so far living on the west side has been great! i love my new room, my new bathroom, having the freedom to do my laundry when i feel like it, the location, and my new roomies. i like exploring the west side and slowly learning where everything is. theres a cute little parky-path thing that is great for longboarding/running and lots of open fields to pass my new rugby ball around :) and maybe practice up my baseball skills so i'll be pro for office baseball.
next on my to do list: make more friends. because right now i'm down to alaya and jon and my mom. and sometimes kelsey. i guess living in this house gives me tons of opportunities to make four new roommate friends (i'm kind of new to the concept of roommate friends..i've only ever had one.) being in a new ward and living on a different side of town will help me out in this department i think. having a boyfriend has kind of isolated me from my friends..unless they're couple friends. not that i regret having a boyfriend at all because jonny is my best friend! sometimes it feels like i am out of practice at the making friends thing..i think i have developed a type of social retardism.
i decided this week that i will never get married. no, it wasnt a decision..it was brought to my attention that i will never get married. if i do, it will be at the ripe old age of thirty. there are several key pieces of information that sustain this reasoning:
1. i'm going to texas for two years. who am i going to date in texas? megan and tom already vetoed the texans and the mexicans. i will associate with no members of the opposite sex under the age of forty unless there is a male in my program. unlikely.
2. jon's going on his mission. that is a beautiful and great thing! but what if he comes back changed? change is a good thing..but what if he realizes that i'm a crappy person? what if this change of heart is so dramatic that he'll wonder why he was with me in the first place? my most obvious choice as a spouse may not even remember my name when he returns.
3. after hygiene school, i will, most likely, return to canada as a poor, employment-starved ex-student with too much debt and a texan accent. as desirable as that is..i dont think i'll have boys lining up at my door.
4. when i do get a job, men will only want me for my money. and thats no good.
okay, okay, im kind of grasping at straws..but right now it just seems like i'm the most undesirable person.
things with jon are going a lot better..its hard dating a person and not knowing where you'll end up. i mean, you date someone because you love them and enjoy being with them and hopefully want to be with them for the rest of your life..but when you realize that you arent certain that you two will last and be together forever, its really discouraging. i hate the point in a relationship when you realize that you really dont know if things are going to work out in the long run. :(
as disheartening as this all is, you'd think i'd just avoid things that would remind me of the future single life i have to look forward to. i just cant pull myself away from it all. i get way to excited when i see a new wedding album on facebook and obsessively cruise through the album two to three times. i'm obsessing over different wedding colours and the distribution of my wedding invites..im weighing the pros and cons of different photographers. trying to narrow down my picks for bridesmaids..i shamefully admit that i've looked at wedding dresses three times this week.
my heart breaks a little every time.
i feel so discouraged: its feels like i'll never find the person that i'm meant to be with. in my patriarchal blessing it says that i'll find a husband in the own due time of the Lord..i'm not sure how long thats going to be. i think thats His way of telling me that, even though it feels like i need to be married now, He has other things planned for me before then. its just hard for me to understand that right now.
down with love and marriage :(
so far living on the west side has been great! i love my new room, my new bathroom, having the freedom to do my laundry when i feel like it, the location, and my new roomies. i like exploring the west side and slowly learning where everything is. theres a cute little parky-path thing that is great for longboarding/running and lots of open fields to pass my new rugby ball around :) and maybe practice up my baseball skills so i'll be pro for office baseball.
next on my to do list: make more friends. because right now i'm down to alaya and jon and my mom. and sometimes kelsey. i guess living in this house gives me tons of opportunities to make four new roommate friends (i'm kind of new to the concept of roommate friends..i've only ever had one.) being in a new ward and living on a different side of town will help me out in this department i think. having a boyfriend has kind of isolated me from my friends..unless they're couple friends. not that i regret having a boyfriend at all because jonny is my best friend! sometimes it feels like i am out of practice at the making friends thing..i think i have developed a type of social retardism.
i decided this week that i will never get married. no, it wasnt a decision..it was brought to my attention that i will never get married. if i do, it will be at the ripe old age of thirty. there are several key pieces of information that sustain this reasoning:
1. i'm going to texas for two years. who am i going to date in texas? megan and tom already vetoed the texans and the mexicans. i will associate with no members of the opposite sex under the age of forty unless there is a male in my program. unlikely.
2. jon's going on his mission. that is a beautiful and great thing! but what if he comes back changed? change is a good thing..but what if he realizes that i'm a crappy person? what if this change of heart is so dramatic that he'll wonder why he was with me in the first place? my most obvious choice as a spouse may not even remember my name when he returns.
3. after hygiene school, i will, most likely, return to canada as a poor, employment-starved ex-student with too much debt and a texan accent. as desirable as that is..i dont think i'll have boys lining up at my door.
4. when i do get a job, men will only want me for my money. and thats no good.
okay, okay, im kind of grasping at straws..but right now it just seems like i'm the most undesirable person.
things with jon are going a lot better..its hard dating a person and not knowing where you'll end up. i mean, you date someone because you love them and enjoy being with them and hopefully want to be with them for the rest of your life..but when you realize that you arent certain that you two will last and be together forever, its really discouraging. i hate the point in a relationship when you realize that you really dont know if things are going to work out in the long run. :(
as disheartening as this all is, you'd think i'd just avoid things that would remind me of the future single life i have to look forward to. i just cant pull myself away from it all. i get way to excited when i see a new wedding album on facebook and obsessively cruise through the album two to three times. i'm obsessing over different wedding colours and the distribution of my wedding invites..im weighing the pros and cons of different photographers. trying to narrow down my picks for bridesmaids..i shamefully admit that i've looked at wedding dresses three times this week.
my heart breaks a little every time.
i feel so discouraged: its feels like i'll never find the person that i'm meant to be with. in my patriarchal blessing it says that i'll find a husband in the own due time of the Lord..i'm not sure how long thats going to be. i think thats His way of telling me that, even though it feels like i need to be married now, He has other things planned for me before then. its just hard for me to understand that right now.
down with love and marriage :(
Tuesday
Friday
things you probably dont know about me (pt.1)
1. i never have, nor ever will, pee in a bush. i will hold it until facilities are available, thank you very much.
2. i rarely eat leftovers. if i do, there are only certain meals that i will eat (spaghetti, meat loaf, lasagna, rice and the like).
3. i lick both sides of the chip before i eat it.
4. i suffer from a fear of heights. i always thought i was just afraid of falling and landing..then someone explained to me that there isn't much more to be afraid of when youre up high. therefore, fear of heights. (i am working at overcoming that fear. walked on the train bridge last week..suck it, phobia!)
5. i am a really, really bad arguer. i always see truth in what the other person is saying.
6. i am a terrible, terrible actor.
7. i really dislike hurting peoples' feelings..i am a people pleaser.
8. i prefer to sleep with my bedroom door locked..i feel safer that way.
9. i put peanut butter on both pieces of bread in a pb&j sandwich.
10. i think being lonely is the worst feeling one could experience. well, probably not the worst, but i think its pretty up there. (not just being alone..i enjoy a vast amount of alone time. i'm talking about the times that you feel that you have nobody to depend on, that nobody cares about you or how you feel, that you have no one to confide in. the kind that leaves you crying in your bed in the dark. that kind of loneliness.)
11. i am a grammar fiend, although my speech and blogging would probably say otherwise. and by fiend i mean nazi.
12. although i may seem like a social person, i love time to myself. i am also too independent to constantly have people around me. i am a loner at times.
13. this probably isnt too unknown..but i have a wicked temper and little to no patience.
(note: i labeled this as "part 1" in hopes that i will dredge up enough points from the bottom of my soul to formulate a second part. we'll see how that goes.)
2. i rarely eat leftovers. if i do, there are only certain meals that i will eat (spaghetti, meat loaf, lasagna, rice and the like).
3. i lick both sides of the chip before i eat it.
4. i suffer from a fear of heights. i always thought i was just afraid of falling and landing..then someone explained to me that there isn't much more to be afraid of when youre up high. therefore, fear of heights. (i am working at overcoming that fear. walked on the train bridge last week..suck it, phobia!)
5. i am a really, really bad arguer. i always see truth in what the other person is saying.
6. i am a terrible, terrible actor.
7. i really dislike hurting peoples' feelings..i am a people pleaser.
8. i prefer to sleep with my bedroom door locked..i feel safer that way.
9. i put peanut butter on both pieces of bread in a pb&j sandwich.
10. i think being lonely is the worst feeling one could experience. well, probably not the worst, but i think its pretty up there. (not just being alone..i enjoy a vast amount of alone time. i'm talking about the times that you feel that you have nobody to depend on, that nobody cares about you or how you feel, that you have no one to confide in. the kind that leaves you crying in your bed in the dark. that kind of loneliness.)
11. i am a grammar fiend, although my speech and blogging would probably say otherwise. and by fiend i mean nazi.
12. although i may seem like a social person, i love time to myself. i am also too independent to constantly have people around me. i am a loner at times.
13. this probably isnt too unknown..but i have a wicked temper and little to no patience.
(note: i labeled this as "part 1" in hopes that i will dredge up enough points from the bottom of my soul to formulate a second part. we'll see how that goes.)
Wednesday
funny story..
today jon and i were wrestling. in an act of self defense, i heeled his lower back with my heel (using said anatomically-sound bone as a battering ram) to deter his attack.
result: i think i sprained my ankle. or achilles tendon or something.
fetch.
result: i think i sprained my ankle. or achilles tendon or something.
fetch.
Saturday
SL, UT
ahhh. salt lake, utah. what a glorious place! jonny, his sister katelyn, our friend kelsey scott and i road tripped through the night to utah. yes, i did get through the border :) my letter worked! it was probably just my charm now that i think about it.
date and time of departure: thursday night 9:00ish pm (from cardston)
date and time of arrival: friday at 8:45ish am (salt lake)
after our arrival at jonny's aunt laurel's house, we proceeded to pass out for a couple of hours. i went a full 24 hours without sleep..impressive, no? i dont function well without sleep.
our first day activities include:
1. getting settled at the house. jonny's aunt's house is amazing. its in a way nice, multilevel neighbourhood of utah and has cute stone flooring and lots of cute artsy knick knacks :) its the kinda house you never get bored in. they had a vintage baby grand piano that was so old the ivory was peeling off the keys and a statue of a bulldog that i thought was real every time i saw it.
the view from the porch
also we whipped together a fabulous breakfast!
ingredients:
-oatmeal
-bananas
-shredded coconut
-crushed pecans
-cinnamon
and milk. so good.
2. showered and got all pretty-ed up for supper at tucano's brazilian grill. if you havent been there, make a point to stop there the next time youre in salt lake. they have a massive "salad festival", the equivalent of canada's salad bar, the boasts every delicious side dish that you could imagine. the real kicker is the main course-waiters bring 20 different kinds of meat on skewers throughout the duration of the meal. such meats include filet mignon wrapped in bacon, spicy brazilian sausage, various tips of sirloin, and chicken hearts.
yes. chicken hearts. jonny ate one..luckily he told me what it was just as i was cutting into it. ewww. the best meat was the battered codfish in a mango sauce..so delicious! the intermittently served fire roasted pineapple with a brown sugar glaze was inspirational..mmm :) after that experience we cruised the gateway mall..i was in heaven.
3.we cruised temple square..i love that place so much :) i believe we watched a movie as well..but i don't remember.
day two:
we stumbled out of our beds to hear the first session of conference on saturday morning. we dined on cinnamon buns and oranges as pres. monson talked about his wife..it was way cute! instead of going tothe second session, we met up with jon's brother in law and his brother to hit up "clash of the titans". quick review: it was okay.
After the movie we ventured to cafe rio and ordered a pork burrito enchilada style. so indescribably good :)
jonny went to the priesthood while i was unleashed upon gateway mall. my bounty includes:
-three tres cute skirts
-an abercombie hoodie (im legit, i know)
-an awesome new purse!
- a cardigan
- and a cute new shirt.
i did pretty good for two hours (pats self on back) lol. lame.
he picked me up after the session and we took night pictures at temple square.
day three:
we rose and shone bright and early to wait in line for tickets for the morning session on sunday..no such luck. we watched the session in the north visitors center. i took diligent notes as everyone else in the room slept. we watched the second session in the tabernacle..by that point in time, my patience was waning so jon and i doodled in my journal.
that night was a big easter dinner with jonny's family! it was way fun. we played rubikub (?) with jon's way cool cousins brittany and tiffany. after watching another movie we retired to bed, only to rise at 4:30 to make preparations for our departure.
day four: as we passed through layton, we picked up a dozen krispy kreme's to share between the two of us..lewd, right? we trekked home and eleven hours later, we were there :)
date and time of departure: thursday night 9:00ish pm (from cardston)
date and time of arrival: friday at 8:45ish am (salt lake)
after our arrival at jonny's aunt laurel's house, we proceeded to pass out for a couple of hours. i went a full 24 hours without sleep..impressive, no? i dont function well without sleep.
our first day activities include:
1. getting settled at the house. jonny's aunt's house is amazing. its in a way nice, multilevel neighbourhood of utah and has cute stone flooring and lots of cute artsy knick knacks :) its the kinda house you never get bored in. they had a vintage baby grand piano that was so old the ivory was peeling off the keys and a statue of a bulldog that i thought was real every time i saw it.
the view from the porchalso we whipped together a fabulous breakfast!
ingredients:
-oatmeal
-bananas
-shredded coconut
-crushed pecans
-cinnamon
and milk. so good.
2. showered and got all pretty-ed up for supper at tucano's brazilian grill. if you havent been there, make a point to stop there the next time youre in salt lake. they have a massive "salad festival", the equivalent of canada's salad bar, the boasts every delicious side dish that you could imagine. the real kicker is the main course-waiters bring 20 different kinds of meat on skewers throughout the duration of the meal. such meats include filet mignon wrapped in bacon, spicy brazilian sausage, various tips of sirloin, and chicken hearts.
yes. chicken hearts. jonny ate one..luckily he told me what it was just as i was cutting into it. ewww. the best meat was the battered codfish in a mango sauce..so delicious! the intermittently served fire roasted pineapple with a brown sugar glaze was inspirational..mmm :) after that experience we cruised the gateway mall..i was in heaven.
3.we cruised temple square..i love that place so much :) i believe we watched a movie as well..but i don't remember.
day two:
we stumbled out of our beds to hear the first session of conference on saturday morning. we dined on cinnamon buns and oranges as pres. monson talked about his wife..it was way cute! instead of going tothe second session, we met up with jon's brother in law and his brother to hit up "clash of the titans". quick review: it was okay.
After the movie we ventured to cafe rio and ordered a pork burrito enchilada style. so indescribably good :)
jonny went to the priesthood while i was unleashed upon gateway mall. my bounty includes:
-three tres cute skirts
-an abercombie hoodie (im legit, i know)
-an awesome new purse!
- a cardigan
- and a cute new shirt.
i did pretty good for two hours (pats self on back) lol. lame.
he picked me up after the session and we took night pictures at temple square.
day three:
we rose and shone bright and early to wait in line for tickets for the morning session on sunday..no such luck. we watched the session in the north visitors center. i took diligent notes as everyone else in the room slept. we watched the second session in the tabernacle..by that point in time, my patience was waning so jon and i doodled in my journal.
that night was a big easter dinner with jonny's family! it was way fun. we played rubikub (?) with jon's way cool cousins brittany and tiffany. after watching another movie we retired to bed, only to rise at 4:30 to make preparations for our departure.
day four: as we passed through layton, we picked up a dozen krispy kreme's to share between the two of us..lewd, right? we trekked home and eleven hours later, we were there :)
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